I just found out the UPCAT results this morning. My name wasn't there. I tried to ignore that stabbing feeling the entire day and i hoped deeply that by the time i check it this afternoon, my name would be there. But it wasn't. That's when it all sank in. Paolo's single text message, saying "aw.:(", moved me to tears. And how he tried to comfort me when he called. It was funny how he tried to stop me from crying. I guess i'm lucky to have a guy like him. :')
But i do wish Apollo was the one who's comforting me.
But you know, knowing that he passed and i didn't, made me a bit...frustrated. I don't know. I should be happy. I mean, i am happy for him. It's just...i don't know. Maybe i'm not enough for him. Maybe i'm too bobo for him. And i know, i've been feeling inferior, but i didn't mind it at all. Except now.
What he needs is perfection. A thing which i greatly lack.
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